Thursday, December 10, 2015


I have had a lot of time to think about time and life and people and experiences as I waited for acknowledgment from people who have no manners or class and patience as I waited for my paperwork to pass through bureaucratic red tape as I almost fell through the cracks, but with persistence and determination I made it through and all is well.

I have been waiting for eight long years for this particular time in my life.  A time when I can begin to rebuild what was lost in that horrible housing crash of 2008, you know, when most of the world got screwed over by greed and the banks got bailed out, but the people didn't get help.

I lived in fear of always having to live in the world I had to survive in over the past eight years and am thankful to finally be seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, thank you very much!  Just surviving is one of the worst things in the world, even when you are good at it.  I thankfully, didn't have to compromise any of my values or morals or degrade my self, but I am sure there are people whom have had to and are still doing so; there by the grace of god goes any one of us for sure!

While practicing patience, I also had to practice kindness and remember during this time, that golden rule, "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all"  I was feeling the stress of and the residue of reality - which I always try to live in, but like some people, stick my head in the sand and pretend that what I am experiencing isn't really happening.

Since I am obeying the golden rule I will not elaborate, but can only say that I am not surprised by the behavior of a couple of individuals whom I gave my time and energy when they needed it, until they didn't need it, who acted and still act like asses who are not worthy of my time, support, energy or presence.

I had a wonderful Thanksgiving with my boys, my sons Dad, my daughter in law and my sweet grandchildren to remind me, once again, on what is important.  Family, fellowship, faith and love (and food, of course.)  The bond that we have is one which gets stretched at times very thin, but always snaps back and lasts no matter what.

As we approach the Christmas Season I continue to be thankful and grateful for everything.  There is much gladness in my heart and for the first time in so many years I think I have the spirit in me once again.

I look forward to the New Year to mark a fresh beginning full of hope, dreams and possibilities and oh yeah, new goals!!!!  I look forward to my light shining brighter than ever.  How far it reaches we shall see - the future looks very bright to me indeed!

My hope for all of you who have been so dedicated and patient and a large part of why I write and why I don't at times, is for you to have the best year and find some way to shine as well.  Some of you I somehow inspire and some of you inspire me a great deal, so thanks for that!

Much to do over the next 15 days between decorating, baking, cooking and planning so I am not making a promise that I will be writing every day, it seems that every time I do my plans go askew, so when I can I will and that is the best I can do!

Thanks for sticking around - I am truly blessed

No comments:

Post a Comment