MOTHER'S DAY

I am forever changed.
I am as I was before, just a little less complete
blank like this sheet before I added words.

Living in  limbo
after watching you go
Listening to the words you say
the way you behave
Which are two completely different things!
Never to understand

Weeks passed
I wasn't sure what to do
Each day was filled with thoughts of you

Worrying about how we would be
professionally
Less worried as we went along
Almost feeling like I belonged

Perhaps there is time to heal and understand
I went without fear, along with your plan
"If you quit, I will too"
Those are words you swore were true

They were just part of your main plan
You knew my love of Art was my "other man"
It was also the glue that kept me with you

The choice became clear
on that sunny Sunday
the day you were so mad,
thinking I was glad not to answer you
no matter what I do wasn't good enough
that much is true

I took time out to be with you
doing what we love to do
You cut me out and sealed our fate

Those words you said to me
sealed my decision instantly
Taking away my dream, being petty, being mean
You can't bully someone into loving you
all it does is push them further from you

You said you knew me well
If that much is true you knew what saying those words would do
Sealing my heart closed
Getting up and walking away
was not the way I planned my Mother's Day