Thursday, June 25, 2015


It is 11:00 p.m. Thursday.  The eve of the birth of my first grandson.  I know I should be winding down but I know myself and know that that won't be happening anytime soon.  The microwave is beeping, which means in a few minutes my tea will be steeped and I can begin to try to relax.

I am going to the hospital early, so I have to get up early.  I do not like waiting rooms and hospitals but I do like the thought of having a newborn baby, my first grandson by my eldest son, a new generation!

What a milestone!  I was fairly certain this day would never come.  My son's all swore they were not going to reproduce, and now he is soon to be the proud father of not only the most amazing daughter, but now a son!

When my son got married I remember how happy I was.  Light radiated from me.  I floated!  I was high on the Love that Love produces.  I knew my soon to be daughter in law was the woman for him. I was blessed that day, to finally have a daughter.

Happiness, true pure happiness produces an energy and it feels so marvelous!  It is an infrequent feeling in me normally.  Although I am an outwardly happy person, I have my demons and one of them is the opposite of happy, so I embrace happy and treasure it like gold.

To me, it is more valuable than gold.  I know it sounds sappy.  It is true, I am a sap, a romantic and a nature and animal lover.  What can I say, I am who I am.  A new generation in my family to pass on the family name also produces such a feeling!

My grand daughter is less than happy about this new happening.  I know that will change tomorrow. I am not worried about my little monkey girl!! She is so loved and so full of love.  I know she will love her new brother and be a huge help.

Life has been a whirlwind of change, upon change, upon change.  Life has gone from zero to 80 mph in light speed. As I sit and type and think over the past couple of months and all of the changes and activity it reminds me of days gone by thinking of the past and the future simultaneously.

I sit and count my blessings and live in the peace and grace and love of my life.  It has been a long strange trip.  The road was not always smooth and straight.  It was all worth it to get to this place and this day in this time, and this feeling!!!!

1 comment:

  1. Jen, I absolutely loved this. I love seeing you so happy. It is a place you should be in more often. Enjoy your new grandson, and I. too, rejoice in his birth.