Lately it seems that I have been reconnecting with people from various stages and parts of my oh so diverse and sometimes dramatic and usually traumatic times. My life has not been dull to say the least.
I came in with a bang a couple of months early to have my father pulled out of the jungles of Vietnam for a double funeral as my Mom and I were not expected to live. In the meantime his entire Platoon got wiped out, or so the story goes.
Anyway, back to the story. All of these experiences which I am not willing to get into at this very moment have led to the very good/bad ability to build up walls and not remember stuff from certain times. Therefore when I see people who I don't see often or at all in say 30 years or so it is difficult to place them if I have buried that whole segment of time.
Luckily, I have learned how to avoid drama and most negative based situations as best I can in order to not have to forget my life. One thing I like about having a blog is that I have a journal of my experiences that I can look on and remember.
I have noticed lately that it is getting easier to remember the great times that have filled my life without having to relive all of the crazy weird and unrealistic events which occurred over the course of my existence. Another sign of forward motion in my mind.
Progress is always a good thing as far as I am concerned. On that note I am happy to report that my cholesterol check up has improved dramatically. I do need to get the good cholesterol up some more which should not be too hard right?
I just spent the past couple of hours hanging out with my youngest son, who amazingly enough will be 21 in a few short months. Time flies so quickly. And one of my oldest friends. It was funny the three of us hanging out and talking. Much easier to carry on adult conversations when your kid isn't 4 and demanding all of your attention.
Looking through photo albums recently for pictures for my friends party ~ coming across pictures of these old friends whom shared a large part of my life when I was younger even than my youngest son... These people who are so far away from me and yet some of the people who know me so well.
Memories do not always have to be bad. Which is why I am on this journey. This exploration forward discovering what life is like in the light so to speak. Doing things that I like ~ rediscovering what they are. It has been a fun journey with some unexpected rewards. It makes me laugh when I rediscover something that I liked or used to do with passion that I just forgot. Very strange indeed!
Not to say it is over ~ this journey has been on going for quite sometime. I hope it continues for many years to come. I have a lot of work to do ~ miles to go before I sleep (one of my Dad's favourite saying in days gone past.)
I however must get some sleep. It is late as I write this. I am tired in a good way. Proud that I was able to achieve this goal I set by adjusting my diet, and also this giant leap of self discovery and moving forward as well.
Always keep the faith no matter how bleak
and dark the place you find yourself.
The light will always find you.
jmg
I came in with a bang a couple of months early to have my father pulled out of the jungles of Vietnam for a double funeral as my Mom and I were not expected to live. In the meantime his entire Platoon got wiped out, or so the story goes.
Anyway, back to the story. All of these experiences which I am not willing to get into at this very moment have led to the very good/bad ability to build up walls and not remember stuff from certain times. Therefore when I see people who I don't see often or at all in say 30 years or so it is difficult to place them if I have buried that whole segment of time.
Luckily, I have learned how to avoid drama and most negative based situations as best I can in order to not have to forget my life. One thing I like about having a blog is that I have a journal of my experiences that I can look on and remember.
I have noticed lately that it is getting easier to remember the great times that have filled my life without having to relive all of the crazy weird and unrealistic events which occurred over the course of my existence. Another sign of forward motion in my mind.
Progress is always a good thing as far as I am concerned. On that note I am happy to report that my cholesterol check up has improved dramatically. I do need to get the good cholesterol up some more which should not be too hard right?
I just spent the past couple of hours hanging out with my youngest son, who amazingly enough will be 21 in a few short months. Time flies so quickly. And one of my oldest friends. It was funny the three of us hanging out and talking. Much easier to carry on adult conversations when your kid isn't 4 and demanding all of your attention.
Looking through photo albums recently for pictures for my friends party ~ coming across pictures of these old friends whom shared a large part of my life when I was younger even than my youngest son... These people who are so far away from me and yet some of the people who know me so well.
Memories do not always have to be bad. Which is why I am on this journey. This exploration forward discovering what life is like in the light so to speak. Doing things that I like ~ rediscovering what they are. It has been a fun journey with some unexpected rewards. It makes me laugh when I rediscover something that I liked or used to do with passion that I just forgot. Very strange indeed!
Not to say it is over ~ this journey has been on going for quite sometime. I hope it continues for many years to come. I have a lot of work to do ~ miles to go before I sleep (one of my Dad's favourite saying in days gone past.)
I however must get some sleep. It is late as I write this. I am tired in a good way. Proud that I was able to achieve this goal I set by adjusting my diet, and also this giant leap of self discovery and moving forward as well.
Always keep the faith no matter how bleak
and dark the place you find yourself.
The light will always find you.
jmg
I know I say this all the time, but it is true. You are gifted. Each and every entry is so well written, that we are able to visualize the moment. Keep up the good work.
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