KEEPING IT REAL AND RANDOM

At times I check out my cards online to see if I am in line with the universe so to speak, this is what I got today:

My Recent Past

Four of Swords
A time of repose and solitude. Get away from everything and take a vacation for your mind and spirit. Your body is exhausted as you have been trying to do too much. Time to stop and think about where you are headed in life. A time of stability. Relaxation. Your body needs to heal before you continue. Listen to what you inner voice is telling you.

It has been a time of much repose and solitude.  While I have not taken a vacation physically, I have been trying to rest my mind and spirit.  Avoiding all draining things and seeking only activities and people who fill my cup instead of take more from my depleted self. 

As I am always thinking about where I am headed in life, this is nothing new, the only thing I never do is stop while I am doing it.  I finally see a bit of a direction.  Besides parenting which is something which I do automatically, I have only had jobs and many random ones, except once.

When I got hurt in 1999, I had a direction and a goal and a purpose and life was very stable.  The stability is the most important thing.  Having that taken away from me and adjusting to the many physical limitations and healing was very difficult and time consuming, and I lost my promotion and the ability to do my beloved job!  It was two big losses at once!

Having a safe environment the most important thing, and the most difficult to accomplish since I lost the house in 2008, and we have gone more than one winter without heat.  Missed the wood stove very much then!  Life is what it is!   Thank goodness air is free to breath!  

I have been trying to listen to my inner voice but it is so quiet and distant still!

My Current Situation

Two of Cups Reversed

A relationship or partnership is not as meaningful as you thought. May be time to reevaluate your interest in a venture. Is the other party as invested in the relationship? Ardor may be cooling. Old negative energies may be surfacing and causing problems. A rift is possible. Anger. Other party hesitant to begin. Time for a serious talk between two people. Possible demise of a relationship.

This one is tricky.  I find that you can't clearly see your current situation, because it is the here and now and not gone by.  

As I read this I am unsure what venture I must reevaluate.  I am in many relationships so it would be hard to pin point one down, and I am not involved in any ventures with anyone other than myself and this blog.   I would hate to lose any of my current friends, still recovering from the dismissal by my "best friend".

 I am loving writing the blog, and if you are wondering would not stop it for the world.  I do have to reevaluate some things about it though.  It seems that two of my children are not very happy at the thought of being featured in anyway at all. 

That brings up the question of how to continue on my journey and my exploration, they being a part of my journey, and me, having been very careful not to write anyone else's story in my own, omitting important details and memories and things because of it.  

I should also add, that my children refuse to read it so they really don't even know what they are talking about.  They are independent and stubborn, traits they get from me.  I for one, do not like conflict, and personally hope it is not going to be an issue!  I am certain that I will figure it out!  

I know one thing, they will not end our relationship because of it.  So I think the demise of a relationship is a totally different matter altogether.  I will keep you posted - or not, depending on if I share that part of my journey.  (Smiles)

Old negative energies resurfacing and causing problems definitely have been the most tricky thing to avoid in my current situation, as we all know from the blog a few days ago that I turned that around with LAUGHTER - which I am told changes brain chemicals  - thank you Jarle for sharing that with me!

Writers note to readers:  I thought I would change it up, and I do like to read these in fun.  Fun being the key word here.  As I am puzzled as how to address the newly discovered "Hate" of my blog from my kids and I was stuck on a topic to write, this seemed like an interesting idea.

My Future Influences

Six of Swords

Time to travel, perhaps near or to water. Move to a new area. A change of pace and scenery. A slowing down. This part of your journey needs reverence and thought. Pick up the pieces and move on. Regained health, but it's been a slow process. Take slow methodical steps. Keep your chin up; this is a time of recovery. Sadness, but not depression. Coping. Hope is renewed.

We all know I want to travel and go to the Azores and see where my ancestors lived before they came to the United States, the first line of this is very encouraging.  (I must add that the future is nothing that I put stock into, as one slight change in actions change everything!!!  It is just one possible scenario  nothing is written in stone and that is definitely that, but it is fun to hope and dream!)

If I got any slower I would be a turtle!  I swear to god!    Slow and steady wins the race apparently!  

So I guess if I take it slow and be careful, being sure to keep my chin up ALWAYS, I will recover the sadness, always coping, but with renewed HOPE!!!

I hope you have all enjoyed my interpretation of my  Random Tarot cards.  Always keeping it real!  Hope you are as well!